Well people, This is basically a letter I wrote to “someone special”. Read b4 saying “aiwa ya 3am.Mashya m3ak almania”
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Should I write this? Will these words reach you? I guess they will. No, I’m SURE they will but I doubt that they will reach you by the same method they reach the others. You won’t receive it by mail or post. You won’t read it on a facebook wall or in a newspaper. No, you’re much better and much greater than to need these stupid methods or their likes to know about me. Let the others use the former method for that’s all they can do. You and I are connected in a much better and honest way.
I guess we don’t introductions. You know me pretty well. And I know about you the only little bits I can understand. I heard about you a long time ago. I was told so often about you since I was young. I knew about you throughout my life. I knew that you were there in every step in my way to this moment. It was logical, really. It only made sense that you were there. Nothing would have been right in my life if you weren’t there.
I thought of you when I was looking at the stars three days ago. I knew that these stars are too far away. Far enough for us to be seeing their lights now when they’ve actually exploded millions of years ago. You are supposed to be even further away and yet –in a way I’m unable to understand- you’re still closer to me than anyone or anything else.When I was watching these stars I thought “How would the earth look like from there?” and the answer came to me immediately “you won’t see the earth in the first place. It’ll be so far away and tiny for you to see”. This got me thinking “If I can walk in a garden and crush a bunch of ants without even noticing because they’re too small, how would it look like from your place? Aren’t we much smaller from your place?”
Then I realized my mistake. I was applying my terms and standards on you! As if my evil thinking had anything to do with you! You’re not like me or like anyone I know/will know. You’ve much more wisdom and mercy and power to be thought of in my way. I’m so tiny and insignificant to you but you care for me. I guess this is just like you; you have enough mercy to care for the likes of me. By my terms, I’d crush someone like me. But your terms say otherwise. You’d forgive me, care for me and help me even when I’m not giving you back anything.
The strange thing is that you’re always trying to talk to me and other people but we just wouldn’t listen. We’d go for anything but your messages. You sent me hundreds of messages and not a single time I prove myself to be man enough to accept this message. I guess it’s a human nature to forget. I get the message and a couple of days after that I forget it again. And the cycle goes on, you send the message and we look away. And yet you are still patient with all of us.
. To be honest, I have nothing worthy enough to give to you. And you know that, and still you are with me. I don’t understand you but I’m thankful to having you there. As a matter of fact, I’m thankful for the knowledge that you’re there. I guess my world would have been a much darker place if I didn’t know about you. There would be no hope for me that things will get better. No hope for me that everyone will get what he deserves.Speaking of that, I know pretty well that I don’t deserve much and probably I deserve nothing from all the things I have but could you please keep forgiving me? I promise you that I’ll do my best to make you look at me with pride and love. So please stay with me and keep forgiving me.
Love,
Just another one of them
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